For the past few months I’ve been very depressed. So much so, that for a bit I even considered that my time here on earth might be up and that I needed to leave. Not good to say the least.
You see, I let the negative thoughts back in. I stupidly opened that familiar door to fear.
All of those fears that I thought I had conquered and put behind me, were gripping me tightly again. I thought I failed… Failed my Mentors, failed my Family, but mostly failed Myself. It’s been horrible!
I decided that this week I was going to figure out what it was exactly that was causing this “breakdown” and today I finally figured it out.
I forgot my “Why”. I got so caught up in “being successful” I forgot why I was doing all this in the first place.
So today I reread my “Why”. And yes, I cried. Because my “Why” is very powerful to me.
Finding it, changed my life. Losing sight of it, changed it back.
I will never let that happen again!
I’d like to share my “Why” with you. It took me a long time to come up with it, and a lot of digging into places I didn’t want to go. But now I realize how beneficial it is.
What’s my why?
Well, simply put, I haven’t been alive! Even as a young kid I believed I was destined for great things. I knew it in my soul. I knew I was special. What the hell happened? How did I get from there to here? This is not the life I was destined to live! I feel like I’m dying. I feel like I’m just counting the days until it’s over. I’m not experiencing all the joy and wonder that I know is out there. I’m not being the leader I was born to be.
My older kids are just starting their adult lives and they are struggling. I see the negative thought patterns and the mundane life taking hold of them. I see the contentment with a life of lack creeping in. It’s killing me. Are they destined to live the life of poverty that I’ve lived? I want to scream at them to wake up! But how can I do that? How can I expect them to change behaviors I myself have yet to change? People follow leaders who truly lead, not just talk. True leaders lead by example. I haven’t given them any positive examples to follow. This needs to change! This will change!
I, we, they will see the success I’m having. I will restore the thoughts of possibilities in all our lives. The possibility that we can do great things. That we can accomplish our goals. That our dreams are not just something to wish for! That’s the true meaning of success. All the money and all the things are just a by-product of success. True success is knowing that you’re living. Knowing that your short time here on earth was not just waiting to die. Life is meant to be experienced, soaked up, shared.
If I can just do that, I’ll know for the first time in my life that I’m not just a waste of space.
That’s my why!
So my message to you my friend, is to find your “Why”. Because when the going gets tough, and it will, your “Why” can bring you back to a place of empowerment. It will give you the reasons why you must go on. Why you must succeed. It restores hope. Without it, you can’t own your life. And that’s what we all need to strive for. Otherwise, our time here on earth is just a waste. And I know you don’t want that.
If you’d like help working on your own “Why” or just want to share yours with me, just give me a call or shoot me an email. My door is always open.
To Your Success! Because Your Success Matters!
David Haines
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